Today and my emo hair

just checking in. not much happened today.

Happy Yule!

Listening to: Fiona Horne, 'Simple Truths of A...' and Def FX ' A Spell On You'
Doing: Blogging, ruffing up my hair... now it looks emo..!
Thinking: About a lot of things. Mainly looking forward to this Yule weekend.
Inspiration: Fiona
Feeling: Slightly parched... I don't think I've drunken enough water today
I did: Have the most relaxing bath today! It was soo calming.

I might post my Yule fun. :)


Lu xo

rainy...

yeah it's really rainy.

well not much happened today. Amy got pissed off cos I was holding her chips 4 her n Violet was skinny n starving 2 death so i thought it wouldn't matter if I gave her sum. This is one of those biiig packets, and most of it was eaten already. Amy said it was her lunch, n i was lyk yeaaah... u've eaten nearly all of them. So ther wer a few left n she threw them away n she walked off and said she was going 2 the library. I was like... righto wotevs.

dark dark clouds.

I love some people. LOLly (:

i should probly go.. its gunna rain heeaps in a min. love love <3<3<3

Love u

Lu Lu
xo

In Lockdown

well, well. It wasn't going to be long before something went wrong any way. So I can safely say I knew that lol. I was lazing around home today, and Amy calls me up asking me if I'm at school. I was like... uh, do I look like it lol. So Amy goes, "ok, cos I didn't think i saw u when school went into lockdown." Huh?! Lockdown? WTF?! "Didn't u hear about Flinders"n im lyk... oh fuck... oh fuck they have blown up fuckin Flinders St Station man and we r all screwed. But it turned out to be a shooting... I thought Melb was safe?! A random came up and started shooting at these people. One confirmed dead, two in surgery and two in hospital. Then she was telling me about MGC going into isolation, and teacher's were checking everyone constantly and no-one was allowed outside, and the city was in lockdown. I turned on the tv and sure enough, every station was yapping on about it. So I went cold. It was 10:30 and these peeps are running round popping off shots... its like gosh waiting until the rest of us have woken up damn it. So I had gone cold and checked the door was locked lol. anyway that's my freaky thing for the day. And went over the railway on Fri where the truckie hit the train and you can still see the marks where the trail derailed and all that jazz.In three months my entire outlook on life has changed!

off to steal someone's Coke from the fridge...mm

lu xo

listening to: Missy Higgins, Sick Puppies

WISDOM! HAAH

mm... just sitting here dreaming of my baby. Isn't it weird how sometimes you can hang out with someone and then you go home, and the next morning, no matter how cold it is, it still feels like they are there, with you making you feel alive, and you can still smell their skin and still feel their lips on yours, and then you start thinking about them, and then you realise how much they mean to you, and how they have become a part of you?

Sometimes we find love in the strangest places. I guess love is like hair bands, or coins, we find them in the dark places, and you can't see them, until you pull it out from under the couch and realise how it has the potential to be really useful.

I hate phone calls. A voice only says so much about a person. I've been on the phone to people before and I was dancing around, poking my tongue out and being stupid while they were deadly serious, so it's not as if it's real. It makes me miss people more when they ring up to remind me I haven't heard from them in months. Phone calls are stupid, they make you feel guilty for never listening hard enough to what the person on the other end of the line is saying, and sometimes we have reasons why we haven't spoken to people in months. "I miss you baby gurl, when are you coming home?" was a txt I got the other day from some random who used to like me. People only usually call or txt when they are:
a) Bored outta their brains OR
b) Thinking of you
(Very rarely do people contact you to tell you something important... no we do that in person. I guess sometimes we make plans, which we call and txt for.)
and I mean I would be kinda offended if someone only rang me up cos they "had nothing better to do" or "everyone else is busy/asleep/not talking to me" it's like... well fine fuck you, you have to be half-dead from bordedom before you can ring me! It's offensive.
Which brings me to b) that they are thinking of you. This is only ok if they are close friends and it's after school-ish time, as in you've just walked through the door. However, what isn't normal is ex's ringing you at 3am "just cos they were thinking about you" actually getting a phone call from an ex isn't good full stop. So if you dumped them don't think about picking up, it's OVER that's why you dumped them. This phone call can only be picked up and you can only talk to them if and only IF you two broke up cos you moved away or it wasn't anyone's fault and they are moving back and want to love you all over again. Otherwise stay away. The worst thing humanly possible that a person can do is call an ex who broke up with them and they have moved on while the caller hasn't, and the ex has a new partner. It sends the ex's new partner insaaane and they want to kill the ex who in turn will want to kill you for making the dumb call in the first place. The only time a person who has been dumped can call their ex is when a) they just saw their ex's mum die and the ex doesn't know or b) they want them to be even more pissed off then they already r. I mean, how many times have I sat there and seen guys get calls from their ex's and their g/fs gone nuuuttters or the guy and his g/f sit there and laugh at the desperate ex who called up wanting him back. If you love someone and they left, let it go, and if they come back to you then they are truly yours. If they don't, then it was never love.
Phone calls suck. So don't make them.

I'm Gravity, Pulling you down, Planting Your feet back on the ground

I'm not in a good mood. It's to cold to be myself. I'm always shivering.

Sometimes we take chances,

Sometimes we take pills

Something feels good for a while, but my life is like gravity, my happiness will head towards the stars, but then what goes up must come down.

I had to find you,

To tell you I need you

I've retreated back into my shell, and nothing can coax me out. I've curled up into a ball, trying to be as insignificant and small as I can be in this world. I'm shivering, guessing as I stumble my way through this darkness, feeling along the walls, blind.

I don't know what I've done,

I don't know if I like who I've become

I'm running in a circle, chasing my tail, trampling everyone as I do.

I thought love was black and white,

What was wrong and what was right

I wrote a poem, the words were a long string floating out from a hole in my heart, a hole you pentrated to roll across the pages.

Jump in my car, We'll go 100 around the bends

We'll take this road until get back to the start

I can feel my heart shivering in my head.

Grow tall, sugarcane

eat the soil, drink the rain

But know, they'll chase you if you play little games

So run fast, sugarcane

You better run fast

You are my sunshine, warming me, and burning me out of habit. You crawl through my window, into my room to watch me sleep. My blanket of shadows tightens around me, but you chase the darkness away, and give me back my life.

We moved together

Like a ball and a chain

minds becoming to halves of the same

it was real but in the shadows it grew

You whispered your feelings into my ear into the darkness, my lover, my source of joy.

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one said it would be this hard

I love you too.